ANNIVERSARY

Well mine and ryans anniversary is coming up in a few days and after 2 years of marriage i've learned alot about myself and how to communicate to my husband. Not to mention the fact that we have a 2 year old who likes to make things that much more interesting. Our marriage started out very rough with having jacob premature and basically the whole first year was ups and downs its nice that everything has calmed down. What is it about men not caring about anniversaries? I had to remind ryan that 2 years is pretty big since nowadays people don't always make it even 6 months or a year!! I'm very thankful for my family and how far i've come since i was 19 and wild and crazy in college dating and doing stupid things (i think i'm done being a rebel). Anyways i have no idea what ryan is planning but i hope it will be something good. As for presents i got the Instyler Rotating iron (it works wonders), some perfume, and 2 new sets of headphones

thanksgiving crazyness

well thanksgiving was awesome i was preparing for the trip for a month i was sooo excited. Right before we left my week was packed full of stuff i had to do dr appts, therapy and then there was the twilight premiere and getting jacob  to my in laws so grandma could watch him (thanks marla you rock!!) needless to say i started packing on wednesday. so how the week went well i had at least 3 kids hangin on my baby all the time which overwhelmed him (he needs to get used to it though) because of him being premature its normal for him to get extra overwhelmed lots of noise bothers him :(. The awesome thing is he did nap very well even with 5 kids screaming and playing all around the room where he was sleeping (i'd take it over my brothers annoying blathering though). on thanksgiving day we had 15 people around our dinner table (ryan and jared were missing) lots of talking and laughing and awesome food :), afterwards we played some card games and jacob played with his cousins he was sorta used to them by the end of the week and is now getting used to them not being here at home all in all it was an awesome busy,loud and chaotic week and i would do it every week if i could :0 

jacobs story

when i got pregnant with jacob i knew instantly that my body was going through a change, i was gaining weight which is not normal for me. i decided to take a test and the first test i took was not clear i waited 2 weeks took another one this time it was positive. a few short months we found out we were having a boy (we actually found out @ 16 weeks). i was sooo excited because that meant we had enough clothes because my sister in law stacey saved everything from when my nephew was a baby. In nov not long before i had jacob i spent thanksgiving with my husbands family and then again at my sisters moms house. then i think it was a week or so later we had a birthday party for my niece destiny and i noticed my back was hurting not more than 2 days later was when i was in labor for about 12 hrs completely unaware that i was having contractions. i took baths off and on all day because my back was hurting and i was trying to relieve my pain (apparently i had back labor). my husband was working that day and around 6pm i called him and asked if there was any chance he could come home early, he said no i can't get off any earlier. Around 10pm i decided i needed to go to the bathroom well when i got up i noticed that it was red aka i was bleeding well i knew that was not supposed to be happening. I hurried back into the bedroom and told my husband i was bleeding and that we needed to go to the hospital. Somehow i managed to get dressed and have my purse by the door when my husband arrived 15 min later. We ended up calling an ambulance because i could not make it to the car. They emts were afraid i was going to have jacob in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. In the mean time ryan was calling my parents to tell them what was going on funny thing is he told my mother " not to worry but we are on our way to the hospital" long story short she was worried and she immediately called my aunt lisa to start praying (smart women). I made it to the hospital close to 11pm i believe (it was snowing so it took awhile to drive). they wheeled me upstairs and starting asking questions and monitoring me and then before i knew it they told me to scoot to the edge and push, my response "no i'm not ready" to which they replied "well we could do a csection" i sat straight up and said "ok so i need to push" 3 or 4 pushes jacob arrived into the world on December 6th,2009 @ 11:21 pm at a whopping 1lb 15oz they whisked him away to the nicu and i did not see him again for about an hour maybe less (i was told i had a placental abruption basically the placenta detached too early and sent me into labor). They wheeled him back to me with papers to release him to Presbyterian st luke in denver. As i was signing the papers to release him i was aware that it was snowing outside and they could not airlift him and would have to go by ambulance (i was worried). I put trust into the EMT's and i got a call @1:30 am that they had arrived safely. unfortunately i was not able to go to sleep until around 4am (they kept coming in and bothering me asking if i needed meds i was sore but not dying). i was released the next day i was finally able to see my baby and this is what i walked in and saw, it was hard to see how helpless and small he was i held back the tears and prayed we were told the first 72hrs were critical. I must admit i never knew how to react to that bit of news. I think god was telling me everything was going to be ok and i was hoping that someday i would be able to bring him home.

about 110 days later jacob came home on march 17th, 2010 my original due date that the first dr i saw told me :) 

planning a birthday party in 3 months what!?

well its that time of year where we start planning the holidays. the holidays in my family are super busy with lots of birthdays mixed in between thanksgiving, Christmas and new years (not to mention my anniversary). my crazy husband wants to move also...needless to say i'm slightly stressed lots going on in my family right now. anyways back to jacob hes turning 2 in about 3 months and i'm excited to celebrate (hoping i won't be too emotional) i think around his birthday will always be a super emotional time for me, it was a very traumatic experience for me not knowing what was going to happen or even if he would live! god was good to us and gave us a miracle and i'm thankful for everyday i get with him :) i'm hoping my hubby can get time off so we can go to new mexico to visit my cousins for thanksgiving (fingers crossed). in other news we need prayer can't say what for but please pray for us and know that we are keeping faith in god during this time. my hubbys birthday is this week hes turning 27 and i'm excited no idea what to do for him cuz he won't tell me anything special he wants gotta get creative i guess. anyways this week was great got to bring jacob to a place called monkey business and he loved it thinking of getting a pass so i can take him more.here is a video of him on the big slide that he loved he had sooo much fun can't wait to go again. well better hit the sheets gotta be up early with the jakester goodnight bloggers :)

nona and papa are coming back :)

well i've got some down time right now so i figure i'd update you guys on my week. well this week went by fast thankfully the dr appt went well hes healing just fine (they gave us a prescription for anti nausea meds that will be another blog when we try those out) and to call if i have any concerns or he starts re fluxing again. i'm slightly shocked that the house is clean and i'm not rushing around trying to make the house perfect before mom and dad get home (maybe i have grown up alittle ) although i have not ventured down to the basement where my brother jared has been hogging the couch and tv for the past week i briefly went down there last night for something and saw like 20 soda cans which i have been instructed not to help him clean (thanks mom). oh one more thing the new pedia care infant tylenol stuff is awesome great new find since my baby likes to get 4 teeth at once :(. therapy this week was good they think he will be walking soon and we got new shoe inserts for jacob and hopefully he won't grow out of these ones as quickly like last time (supposedly they give him more support to help him walk faster) we will see i guess he didn't like the last ones. well i'm off to scrub some pans theres always something i forget :)

some pics from our hopefully absolute last visit to dr kay!!!!!!!!!!!!

another doctor appointment..

well today jacob has yet another dr appt now i've been to my fare share of dr appts, but i swear i've been to the dr more with jacob over the past year and a half than i have in my 22 years of life! I'm not sure if i'm exaggerating but it feels like i've spent soo many hours just sitting and waiting in a drs office (and my mom wonders why i don't like making these appts). the good news about todays appt though is they are just checking to see how his tummy is healing after his surgery so i've been watching it and it looks completely healed to me. so far no signs of infection or anything hes not taking any pain medication. he seems to be sleeping better also i noticed for at least a month that he would toss and turn all night poor baby mama didn't even know that his tummy was bothering him :(. well hopefully jacob falls asleep here soon so he can wake up in time for his appointment @1:30 i'll post some pics later to show that hes completely healed PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!

a weekend without nona and papa

well this is the first weekend that my parents have been gone in  long time (living with them to save money for something bigger than an apartment) and i think jacob has been missing my dad (papa is his favorite person) i'm hoping this week goes ok with the therapy and stuff (please pray). its hard not having a walking toddler and being right on the border of being 18 months is kinda scary but i'm hoping we have him walking long before his birthday in 3 months. the doctors don't seem to be worried and neither do the therapists, but i think i'm starting to worry just because its sooo close. oh well i guess i'll go to bed and update after this week is over 

Its easy to be a mom.......right?

its been kinda bothering me lately how sooo many people think its easy to be a young mom. i've heard things such as "oh you just get to stay home and play with him all day and nap." well its not quite that simple as i'm sure most of you know its not that easy you may have a relatively well behaved child (much like i do) and yet its still work its not all fun and games. some friends have even said to me "gosh i don't know why u get stressed out or angry with jacob hes soooo easy" and this was after he wouldn't nap all day and all i could do was hold him and try to comfort him...poor baby :( i was about ready to punch my friend who said that. then not a week later we were taking jacob to the emergency room because his stomach started leaking clear fluid hence the reason for his surgery. Now don't get me wrong i'm in no way complaining that "hes the hardest baby in the world" but i don't think its easy to be a good parent, to discipline and make sure your child grows up knowing they are loved and cared for and well behaved. most of my friends are still partying every night and drinking and well being young. i spend my nights and weekends with my family and love every minute of it...i was never big on partying anyway. Sometimes i wish i could just leave and go out with my friends when they ask, but i know that i need to be home and sit by the baby monitor as i watch tv on the off chance jacob wakes up and i gets some midnight snuggles :). i love being a mom i babysat other peoples children since i was 13, when i had jacob i almost didn't believe he was mine to keep and take home. i always thoughts that any minute i'd have to give him back and go home. i'm thankful for everyday i get with my sweet boy and eventhough at times i'm alittle stressed or frustrated i still wouldn't change it for the world and i hope someday that i can have another little blessing from god :) for now i'm jacobs mommy and a wife to a wonderful husband who loves me just as i am <3

fighting sleep

today jacob has decided hes going to fight me and not go to sleep for a nap i'm hoping i'll win. all i know is he won't play and hes eaten and has a clean diaper and theres no reason why he shouldn't be falling asleep and yet he still fights it i hate days like this i can't keep him up because all he does is lay on the floor and cry *sigh* it days like this when i say pray for me guys i'm going to need it  :(

wow i'm a bad blogger

well i've finally signed back in and heres an update on my preemie. he is getting better at walking although still not doing it on his own. he is healing very well from his surgery and now it just looks like a tiny scratch on his tummy. i'm soooo thankful that god has been watching out for us and jacob over the past year and a half things have been rough and at times i felt discouraged but i knew things would always get better or work out ( i guess thats what prayer and faith is all about) jacob finally saw the dr for a check up and hes in the 12% for height weight is still low but then again skinny parents probably don't help with that momma was never the "correct weight" but whatever the curve is going up so i hear thats all that matters. well better go try to nap with jacob so we can have a fun filled afternoon at the mall :) oh and jacob is getting 4 more teeth so once those come in he will have 16 teeth

teething

well my little miracle is now growing his 6th tooth and he kept me up all last night oh lucky me waking up every half hour and having nothing( gave him tylenol when he went to bed couldn't give him more yet) to do but put his pacifier back in and attempt to get some sleep. Why was i alone in doing this? well my husband has been working nights so he isn't home to enjoy this teething process. I still thank god for my miracle everyday i'm soo lucky that i got to bring him home after he was in the hospital for almost 4 months. How the year has flown by we just celebrated one year of having him home on march 17th :) i kinda kick myself now for not doing a blog while he was in the hospital but most ppl know the journey we have taken from him being on full life support,to the feeding tubes and now hes eating everything in site with no tubes oxygen or anything. i still get emotional knowing how hard of a life he has already had and the struggle to survive. He's a fighter and i'm glad i get to see him grow up and be the man god wants him to be thats all for tonight better get to bed so i can wake up with jacob in the morning