some pics from our hopefully absolute last visit to dr kay!!!!!!!!!!!!

another doctor appointment..

well today jacob has yet another dr appt now i've been to my fare share of dr appts, but i swear i've been to the dr more with jacob over the past year and a half than i have in my 22 years of life! I'm not sure if i'm exaggerating but it feels like i've spent soo many hours just sitting and waiting in a drs office (and my mom wonders why i don't like making these appts). the good news about todays appt though is they are just checking to see how his tummy is healing after his surgery so i've been watching it and it looks completely healed to me. so far no signs of infection or anything hes not taking any pain medication. he seems to be sleeping better also i noticed for at least a month that he would toss and turn all night poor baby mama didn't even know that his tummy was bothering him :(. well hopefully jacob falls asleep here soon so he can wake up in time for his appointment @1:30 i'll post some pics later to show that hes completely healed PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!

a weekend without nona and papa

well this is the first weekend that my parents have been gone in  long time (living with them to save money for something bigger than an apartment) and i think jacob has been missing my dad (papa is his favorite person) i'm hoping this week goes ok with the therapy and stuff (please pray). its hard not having a walking toddler and being right on the border of being 18 months is kinda scary but i'm hoping we have him walking long before his birthday in 3 months. the doctors don't seem to be worried and neither do the therapists, but i think i'm starting to worry just because its sooo close. oh well i guess i'll go to bed and update after this week is over 

Its easy to be a mom.......right?

its been kinda bothering me lately how sooo many people think its easy to be a young mom. i've heard things such as "oh you just get to stay home and play with him all day and nap." well its not quite that simple as i'm sure most of you know its not that easy you may have a relatively well behaved child (much like i do) and yet its still work its not all fun and games. some friends have even said to me "gosh i don't know why u get stressed out or angry with jacob hes soooo easy" and this was after he wouldn't nap all day and all i could do was hold him and try to comfort him...poor baby :( i was about ready to punch my friend who said that. then not a week later we were taking jacob to the emergency room because his stomach started leaking clear fluid hence the reason for his surgery. Now don't get me wrong i'm in no way complaining that "hes the hardest baby in the world" but i don't think its easy to be a good parent, to discipline and make sure your child grows up knowing they are loved and cared for and well behaved. most of my friends are still partying every night and drinking and well being young. i spend my nights and weekends with my family and love every minute of it...i was never big on partying anyway. Sometimes i wish i could just leave and go out with my friends when they ask, but i know that i need to be home and sit by the baby monitor as i watch tv on the off chance jacob wakes up and i gets some midnight snuggles :). i love being a mom i babysat other peoples children since i was 13, when i had jacob i almost didn't believe he was mine to keep and take home. i always thoughts that any minute i'd have to give him back and go home. i'm thankful for everyday i get with my sweet boy and eventhough at times i'm alittle stressed or frustrated i still wouldn't change it for the world and i hope someday that i can have another little blessing from god :) for now i'm jacobs mommy and a wife to a wonderful husband who loves me just as i am <3

fighting sleep

today jacob has decided hes going to fight me and not go to sleep for a nap i'm hoping i'll win. all i know is he won't play and hes eaten and has a clean diaper and theres no reason why he shouldn't be falling asleep and yet he still fights it i hate days like this i can't keep him up because all he does is lay on the floor and cry *sigh* it days like this when i say pray for me guys i'm going to need it  :(

wow i'm a bad blogger

well i've finally signed back in and heres an update on my preemie. he is getting better at walking although still not doing it on his own. he is healing very well from his surgery and now it just looks like a tiny scratch on his tummy. i'm soooo thankful that god has been watching out for us and jacob over the past year and a half things have been rough and at times i felt discouraged but i knew things would always get better or work out ( i guess thats what prayer and faith is all about) jacob finally saw the dr for a check up and hes in the 12% for height weight is still low but then again skinny parents probably don't help with that momma was never the "correct weight" but whatever the curve is going up so i hear thats all that matters. well better go try to nap with jacob so we can have a fun filled afternoon at the mall :) oh and jacob is getting 4 more teeth so once those come in he will have 16 teeth